A few months after we lost our son, my husband and I both lost our jobs. Well not really lost more like volunteered to resign; the company we worked for needed to downsize and offered cash settlements to anyone willing to leave. We were really sick of the commute and thought it wouldn't take us more than 4 months to find something else. 4 months turned into a year and finally 2 months ago we both started new jobs, much closer to home (Thank God). The job situation was what was keeping us from trying IVF again. So now I'm ready, and I'm jumping in with both feet! I'm not going to think of any reason not to go ahead with it, I just feel it's the right time. I'm feeling very positive.
Imagining, seeing, believing I will get what I want. Today my husband and I had lunch at our favorite Italian place; as we're eating I see the waiter going to tables with a big bottle filled with numbers, they always play this game, pick a number from 1-100, if your # is drawn your meal is free. So, as I watch another table play I say to my husband "I hope we get our meal free today". At the end of our meal the waiter comes to our table and says pick a number? The first number that came to my mind was the date of my upcoming egg retrieval 14, he shakes the numbers tips over the bottle takes a number and puts it on the table. It was 14! That moment felt so surreal, like I had won because of positive thinking. I know it was just a silly game, and the meal was only $40. But I knew at that moment that positive thinking really does affect the outcome.
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